It's a new year!
2 months into a new year!

New and big things are happening right now.
I'm in Connecticut dealing with some family medical procedures and enjoying my time away from work.
I am so done with that place.
Done.
Finite
Kaput

I'm hoping when I get back, I can sit down and have a talk with the bf.
We need to get the life ball rolling.

I don't really know what else to say on here right now…
I'm back on Gaiaonline… maybe.
That site has disappointed me time and time again, but I keep going back?
It's like a fucked up relationship.
Oh well.

I guess there's my face.

I've been getting headaches every day now for the past couple months.
I can't stand it, because these are not normal headaches.
Sometimes it lasts for only a second and feels like somebody stabbed my head really quick with a needle. Other times it hurts at the base of my skull and it is very painful to breathe in. I keep thinking that I'm dying every time I get one of these pains.
I feel like these pains are probably from my wisdom teeth... I also think they are from stress. I'm sure it would have only been stress from work if I weren't such a hypochondriac... I literally think I'm about to kick the bucket every time I get these pains.
I know I'm repeating myself about 20 thousand times, but this fucking sucks...

And now I'm sick on top of the head pains....

I can't deal.

Can somebody stop this onslaught of snot coming out of my nose?
JEEEEEBUS
All I want to do is smoke a cigarette, but going out into the cold will make it worse... So will smoking.

Notable stuff:

• I've become addicted and recently slightly less addicted to Homestuck. Like, this shit is gold.
• I'm still a large walrus/whale/manatee hybrid.
• My wisdom teeth need to be extracted. I will make sure whoever picks me up when this happens gets a good video. I will also make sure I lose 20 pounds before that video actually happens.
• My new car needs to be repaired as much as my old car did. Bummer.
• I got a new pair of work pants that "really compliment my hips". That's cool.
• I'm soooo close to pulling out my sewing machine... SOOOO close.

Fuck it.

I'm going to smoke.

I need to go to bed.
One moment I'm trying to be fine and act normally...
The next moment, I'm a hysterical mess.

Eugh.

I hate today.
Everything about it.
I've fucked up all day. I'm fucking up right now.
I want to rip my skin open or bash my head agains the wall.
I know it wont make anything better, but I'm so fucking frustrated.
I can't do anything right.
Ever.
I'm a failure.

Uggghhh.
FUCK! I hate this!

I want to curl up and never leave the house.
I know that wont happen.
I never want to eat again.
That's basically a joke.
I can't even harm myself.
I won't ever do anything right.
All this pent up anger and stress just makes me do and say idiotic things.
Lock me away.
I'm selfish. I fucking want to ugh.. I don't know.

Title cannot be blank?

 Is your UGW in an “unhealthy“ range of BMI?

Nope.

It's barely close to being underweight.

I hopefully still wont hate myself physically.

Uh, yeah.

Anyways... This is happening. They finally got the new english dubbed Naruto Shippuden episodes online and I'm catching up.

This episode is ridonk. 

Talking ninja ostrich?

Shino shows emotion?

I don't know if it's because it's nearly 2am or this episode is whack, but I cannot keep up with it.

You know you need to go to bed when the internet is trying to convince you a dog's butt hole looks like jesus.

Done.